This is my precious little dog. I owned his mother who was a very sweet animal and I bred her to get a puppy for my mother. Brandon's mum had one puppy...him. My mom wanted a female so I said I would keep him. I fell in love, I had the privilege of his company for 18 years. He began to fail about 6 months ago. First he went blind, but still got around very well, he ate well and did everything well. A Week ago he began sleeping all day and night and last weekend he wouldn't eat. I hand fed him and made him drink water from my palm.
I knew what was coming...Tuesday afternoon I took off work and my daughter went with me. (I wasn't sure I could do this alone) I kissed him and whispered my love for him. I assured him he'd be free of the little,fluffy beautiful body that didn't quite work anymore. I cried, and I cried. The Doctor took my actions as if this was accepted behavior. A storm had been building, when we brought Brandon to the Vet, and the moment the Doctor quietly said he was gone, there was a flash of lightening and the thunder crashed in a deafening roar, it was one of the worst storms I've ever seen.
This is one of the hardest things I have ever done and now there is a large hole in my heart and my home because he's gone. Everyone says it will be less painful in time. This may seem strange to people who aren't animal lovers, but I loved that little guy and it's terribly painful to be without him.
"Special Love"
There's someone special in my life,
He's not my brother and I'm not his wife.
He's always there at the end of my day,
If I lose my temper he loves me anyway.
His chocolate brown eyes say all that needs said,
At the end of my day he's there in my bed.
With warm wet kisses that tickle my ears,
I'm content in the knowledge we'll be together for years.
He's my best friend and all that he asks,
Is a tender caress or a pat on the back.
A fierce protector in the face of aggression,
Although I love him I have a confession.
I constantly search for the prince of my heart,
Someone who love me right from the start.
A true love who'll tolerate all that goes on.
A man who will LOVE... my pomeranian!
By Misty
For Brandon "may you run in fields of cheese"
9 comments:
Oh Misty, I am so sorry for your loss. I have been where you are at the moment.
Yes it will get easier, not that it will feel like it at the moment.
At least he is not in pain anymore, and I am sure you have some beautiful memories to hold onto.
I am convinced that our best friends spirits are always with us.
Love and hugs to you sweetie. xxx
Thank you Pearl,
I meant to answer a few of your comments last night and I got so tired, I welcome sleep. I've been up late and off and on all night for a while with Brandon. I so appreciate you visiting my blog. I don't keep my blog as current as I should. This evening I'll stop by yours and see what you've been up to. Thank you for all your kind words...
Misty
Misty, so sorry for you loss. I have been there myself, although it hurts so much right now, it will get better one day at a time. Lots of hugs to you!
Thank you Stephanie,
For the encouraging words. It comes and goes but it feels like I swallowed a golf ball most of the time.
Oh my heart aches for you... Your Brandon reminds me so much of my boy.. I know you probably felt a special bond with him.. you were blessed with many years with him..((Hugs))
Thank you Karen, I really was blessed but I sure wish he was still here! It sure hurts doesn't it?
I just discovered your Etsy shop and came to check out your blog and read about your Brandon. I am so sorry for your loss, I too have been there in the last year. I wanted to tell you I love your eyes and dragons.
Victoria ♥
Victoria,
Thank you, Yes it's very hard, I'm sure I get way too attached to my animals. Thank you for the kind words and I'm glad you like the dragons I really enjoy making them. I've decided someday to get contacts (brown) and see if anyone notices, it really doesn't take much to amuse me I guess, have a great day!
Misty
Dearest Misty,
I sympathize with you. I went through the same thing with my beloved cockapoo Fozzie. I held him on my lap as he slipped away whispering in his ear that Mommy loved him. I still feel his presence. We had a very strong bond, as I'm sure you did with Brandon. Bless you for being a wonderful Mother to Brandon.
Judy
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